It takes a lot of work to get right with yourself again. To heal after you thought that you wouldn’t. When you thought that even the best parts of yourself were gone forever.
It takes courage. But what no one ever tells you is that it changes your heart too. And suddenly, you have to relearn how to trust. How to not rush into things. How to be scared anymore.
That’s about where I was when I met you. I was just coasting through my world, hoping for the best. Yes, I was slowly letting go of the past, but that didn’t mean I wasn’t always thinking that it would happen again.
I never planned on giving my heart to someone. Not quite this soon. But then you came around, and turned everything upside down.
You made me smile again. You made me feel hopefully. You restored all of that shattered faith that someone else took and broke. And I want you to know something. Right now, before I lose the courage to tell you at all.
Before I hide behind myself again and push you away.
I want you to stick around. I want you to be there. I was to get to know you. I want to let you unfold my walls. I don’t want you to be another lesson, because let’s face it, I think we’ve both had enough of those.
And maybe it doesn’t have to be forever, but what I’m really trying to say is that I want to give it a chance.
If it falls apart, it was never meant to be. But I really think, and have been thinking since I met you, that we could be really good for each other.
So, I want you to know that I want to take this slow. I don’t want to jump to conclusions. I don’t want to scare myself into thinking you’re another one of the bad guys. I want to give you my trust first and my heart second. And I hope that you take those in your hands and remember that this is not something I do all that often. I don’t want to walk away before really knowing where this goes.
I wasn’t looking for anything but then, out of nowhere, I found you. And I’ll never be anything but grateful.