I know that everything happens for a reason. If it’s anything that you taught me, it’s that sometimes, we have to simply let go and hope for the best.
And that’s what I’m starting to do. And not because of you, but in spite of you.
After all this time, I have to be honest with myself but more importantly, I have to figure out who I am without you. It sounds silly I know, but you took a lot with you when you left.
Isn’t that always the hardest part? Wanting so much to forget that someone left an imprint. To be the same as you were before you met them, before you liked them, before you loved them.
I thought that we were going to be forever. Or at the very least, I hoped that we would last a little longer than this.
But now that I’ve been down for so long, it’s time to find my way back to myself. To the woman I know I can be without you.
I’m not going to say that it didn’t hurt like hell when you left me all alone, but there’s always a silver lining. With you breaking my heart, I can learn what makes it beat by itself.
For the first time in a long time, I’m not scared of what the future holds. I’m excited to start to figure it all out. For me and no one else.
You and I could have been something great. I wanted to build you up, to make you stronger, to grow and change with you. To be in love and stay in love. But life had other plans. There’s no sense in holding onto the past just because you live there. I live here and now, and even though it might take a little more time than I would like, I know that I can do it now.
I can make a life and not feel like there’s a giant hole where you should be.
And I gotta tell you, that’s the best feeling in the world.