We were so close to the part where it gets good.
Sometimes, goodbye takes a little longer than expected.
So, I guess what I’m really trying to say, after all this time and all of these moments of me standing right on the edge, I want this.
I’ve never been the kind of person to let someone hurt me and come crawling back for more. But for you, I did. Because I thought that if I just held on long enough, you would change.
You fall apart and then somehow, you have to piece yourself back together.
Because being with you was so easy when it was, and impossible when it wasn’t. It was always stopping and starting, trying to make something out of nothing.
Let me be very clear about one thing. You, my friend, were a mistake. And a very common one at that.
I can’t go back to you now. I can’t change what already happened and I’ll never be anything but grateful for every moment we had together.
I couldn’t be who you wanted me to be.
I can’t change what happened in the past, before me. I can’t take away your hurt just because I want to.