Waiting is never fun, especially if you’ve been waiting long enough for a partner.
As we wait and pray, the enemy will always feed negative thoughts in our minds, that we’re not good enough and that we will never be happy and whole again. After all, that is his purpose. The enemy wants us to believe that the God that we rely on will never answer our prayers. He is there to kill, steal and destroy.
I used to be his victim. For the longest time, I didn’t know how to take pleasure in my mean whiles and in-betweens. I have hated waiting.
Suddenly, I noticed how God would allow us to be tested, that if we are particularly weak at a certain area, then He would put us in on that situation even more. As 1 Peter 4:12-13 says, “Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial that has come upon you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you share in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed at the revelation of His glory”
As I thought that waiting has been a struggle, I have come to believe too that God would bring out something positive out of all it. As I go through on my devotion, I chose to believe in God’s words and pushed myself to change my perspective.
Amidst all of the hurts and pain waiting may bring, I have learned that the best thing to do is to rest upon the Lord.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” – Matthew 11:28
“I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God.” – Ecclesiastes 3:12-13
Resting doesn’t mean we stop asking and praying, resting basically means making God the pilot of our lives. And if He’s the pilot, then by all means we can sit back and just enjoy.
Right now, I still hope and pray for the things that I don’t have, but the difference is, I have learned to be content and at peace with what I have.
I have learned to be calm while waiting, to fight the sadness, to deal with each and every single day without putting much pressure on myself, most importantly, to enjoy every moment I am in. I have learned to savour each day without being succumbed with the idea of uncertainty about what the future will bring.
In practical, I have learned to celebrate life, make art, make time for my family, enjoy the weekend at the beach, take into small adventures, learn to cook, do some gardening, be busy on being the person I want to fall in love with and just basically learning the things that I needed to prepare for to become a good wife in the future.
I do trips at the park, adopt a pet, take care of myself, read good books, travel, be involved on things that I am passionate about, attend parties, engage in volunteer works, chill with grandma, draw, write, watch feel good movies, run a marathon, most especially take this time to rest.
We all have different take as to what makes us happy. But one thing is certain, happiness doesn’t just come from having a partner. There are a lot of things to be happy about, things that you can’t do anymore when you enter the season of courtship and romantic relationship.
Take every moment to grow. As they say, you will only grow at the threshold of your pain. But I think its also the other way around. You will grow when you have learned to let go of the pain because that is the time when you’ll learn to focus on choosing to do better things. Choose to rest, then choose to go and above all choose to trust.
Trust on God. He is working things out. As for me, I rest assured that the things I’m praying for is on its way.
Meanwhile and in between all of this, I will enjoy every single moment of my life, while waiting for my future spouse.