This Is Why I Could Never Hate You

I still remember the night we met. I was not looking for anyone until I met you. From the very beginning, I was drawn to you. There was something about you that kept me hooked.

Months in the relationship, I opened up to you about things I thought I would never tell a living soul. But to me, you were my safe space, where I could be myself. Flawed but still beautiful.

Looking back, it’s crazy how much I loved you. I still remember the night you opened up about your fears. One of them being, that one day I’d resent you. I told you I never could. But all of a sudden the phone calls, text messages, emails, and FaceTime calls from you stopped coming. You left me without a word. Without an explanation.

Here I am now, still navigating my way throughout the moving on stage, but I still can’t find myself to hate you. I told you I never could but I never told you the reasons why. So here it goes…

I could never resent you because, despite the way you left me, there was a time you were the only person that was there for me.

I could never resent you because you were the first person who got to know every part of me and still chose to accept me. During the time when I couldn’t even accept myself.

I could never resent you because even if I still find myself crying, months after you left, I could never forget all the laughs and memories that we’ve shared.

I could never resent you because I know that not so long ago you loved me too…

If you’re reading this, I want you to know that you taught me so much about love and heartbreak. That even if you really hurt me, I still am and will forever be grateful that I was able to share a year of my life with you.

You are one of life’s greatest lessons.