After All, I’m Glad We Didn’t Work Out

I’m glad we didn’t work out.

I understand now that you were not the cause of me losing myself. I was already lost when I tried to patch up a broken relationship. I was already lost when I picked your happiness over mine, time and time again.

It’s tricky how life can push us so far to teach a lesson. To prove to ourselves how strong we really are. Because change doesn’t occur when we’re comfortable. Change occurs when we have no choice but to look in the mirror and act upon what we see. What I saw was someone who lost the concept of self-love.

I’m glad we didn’t work out.

You made me want a love that will make me feel satisfied, not aching for more. I felt dehydrated. Like every time I drank, I was still thirsty. Because I realize now a person who loves you will make sure you feel every drop of love they can give. They will listen to you, and learn your needs and desires and work to provide that. Asking to be loved when someone claims they love you, is like begging for food when there’s a buffet in front of you.

I’m glad we didn’t work out.

I have learned my insecurities don’t make me weak, but rather a human who is learning and growing. You made me realize I could and I should feel comfortable to speak when I feel insecure. To speak when there is something pressing on my mind. Whether it’s about my body, my appearance, or how you love to keep ties with the opposite sex, I am allowed to have emotions. I won’t feel bad about my thoughts and feelings no more. And thanks to you, you helped me see what I could not.

I’m glad we didn’t work out.

You see it was never about making you realize what we could have been. You can’t waste your time hoping something will become what it is not. We were just moments in each other’s lives. We were just potential, but potential is only successful with effort. Potential is useless unless acted upon. And in a relationship, effort is required by two.

I’m glad we didn’t work out.

Because I no longer need to rely on the affection of another’s. I no longer push aside my own hopes and dreams to keep another’s. At the end of the day, your own voice and your own love is what’s most important.

When the time comes I meet someone new, someone who does not exist as a stress in my life, I will again, be glad we didn’t work out.

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