For the longest time, I couldn’t wrap my head around what happened with us. Why did you do what you did? What was with all of the manipulation and mind games? What was with all of the secrets? Now I’m starting to change my mindset.
Before you came into my life, I experienced real heartbreak. I experienced what it feels like when your heart is shattered into a million pieces and you feel broken inside. I felt anger, sadness, and fear—so many emotions that I would never wish on anyone in a million years. Then you walked into my life.
I was scared going into this. You knew that. I needed you to break down my walls. I saw potential in you. I saw potential in us. I saw a future in us. I still had fear that in a moment, everything could crumble down.
My trust issues turned out to be right. Looking back, I was so scared that I could not enjoy what was in front of me the whole time. So here is what I want to say to you.
Thank you for coming into my life when I needed you the most. Thank you for giving our relationship a chance. Thank you for calling me every night at 8:30 p.m. Thank you for spending three nights a week with me. Thank you for the inside jokes. Thank you for being there for me.
I needed someone like you to see that there are good men out there. I needed someone like you to see that every couple goes through bad times and you just cannot walk away after a fight. I needed someone like you who was reserved and quiet.
You were different than my usual type, and maybe that was what scared me away. Maybe that was what I needed but did not want to face. Maybe before you, I was going after the wrong men. Thank you for everything.
Wherever you are, I hope you are happy and doing well. I do not have any trust issues. I know there is good and bad in everyone, and real relationships have issues, but couples that love each other can get through anything with communication, boundary setting, empathy, honesty, and love.
I am healed from all my past heartbreak and finally ready for the true love I was always waiting for. I believe that was why we met. You came into my life when I needed you the most. For that I can truly say thank you.