Lucky are those who find true love at the right time. And lucky are the people who do not get to experience an almost kind of relationship. In my case, I fell in love with the wrong guy at the wrong time, we were almost, until the days passed that I realized, he couldn’t love me back.
I fell in love with someone I cannot even call mine. I am unrequited. Never did I got the chance to be able to experience of being loved back. If you ask me why I did let myself in that situation? I don’t know. That time, I felt happy. I was sure that I was happy that I had someone with me.
To me, that guy, was so much more of what I have prayed for. He gives a little more time than any other friend can give me. He is everything that I wanted. He was my kind of soul mate, the one that I believe is fated to love me until eternity.
But as much as I wanted him to want me, he couldn’t. He loved less. He cared less. He doesn’t care of what I am thinking right now. He doesn’t care if my world felt so empty even after he left. He doesn’t care at all.
Because, for him, I will always be the girl he can come back to whenever he feels like it. I will always be the one who waits in open arms until he knocks again on my door. He always raises my hearts pedestal. And whenever I feel that he can love me back, he lets me fall and never catches me.
This letter is to the guy who cared less, thank you for everything. But I have to let you go, real, this time. I had nothing left in me. Emotions lost. Mind still on a battle with my heart. I have cried hard enough to realize that I have to go on and continue my life as I made a pause on it for the past three years just to be with you. I don’t want to be unrequited anymore. To be loved back is all that I have ever wanted and you know that.
And you will always be my go-to guy. I will always remember you in my future burger times, milk teas, ice creams, and movie runs. You will always be part of me. I had no regrets meeting you. All was a lesson learned.
Because you were the guy who cared less when I have loved you more.