This Is How I Know That Letting You Go Is Worth It

Couple in front of ocean
Taylor L.

I’m letting go.

Letting go of the pain, letting go of the hurt, and letting go of the idea of you.

You’re not the same anymore and I get it now. Things change, time slows down, and it all starts to seem boring. It’s time to let go – not of you, but of the idea of you.

I can’t say that I’ll be happy for the moment, but that’s just it: it’s just the moment. It’s been cloudy in my mind and nothing is certain anymore. But deep down I know eventually it will pass. It will pass and time will tell where we’ll be.

It’s time to let go. Time to let go enough to have hope again. Hope​ ​that​ I ​will​ ​be​ ​strong​ ​enough​ ​to​ ​fix​ ​what​ ​you​ ​broke.​ ​Hope​ ​that​ ​will​ ​last​ ​longer​ ​than​ ​we did.​ ​Hope​ ​that​ ​one​ ​day​ ​you’ll​ ​see​ ​who​ ​I​ ​still​ ​see​ ​in​ ​you.

They always say to follow you heart, but it can hard when you don’t know which piece to follow after it’s been broken. That’s why it’s so hard for me.

It’s hard to pick up all the pieces that you left me in.

It’s hard to do this all over again. It’s hard. But regardless of the pain, the hard times, the sleepless nights and the rough patches, I won’t lose faith. I won’t stop for you anymore, but I will continue to have faith in that person who lifted me up at one point.

But right now, I have to let go and figure out which path to follow. Nothing lasts forever, but if it’s meant to be it’s meant to be. Time​ ​will​ ​tell​ ​but​ ​it​ ​won’t​ ​stop.​ ​

Regardless​ ​of​ ​that​ ​notion,​ ​I’ll​ ​always​ ​want​ ​the​ ​best​ ​for​ ​you. But​ ​what’s​ ​best​ ​for​ ​you​ ​isn’t​ ​me​ ​right​ ​now.​ ​

But​ ​I’ll​ ​still​ ​have​ ​faith​​ ​that​ ​you’ll​ ​realize​ ​what I​ ​saw​ ​in​ ​you​ ​that​ ​you​ ​didn’t.​ ​One​ ​day. But​ ​until​ ​then,​ ​time​ ​will​ ​take​ ​its​ ​course​ ​and​ ​flow​ ​in directions​ ​we​ ​need​ ​it​ ​to. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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