To My Person,
You told me you’ve never been in love before.
You’ve been in multiple relationships but you said you never really loved any of these women.
You dreamed of experiencing that wonderful feeling that everyone is talking about. The feeling of waking up one morning and realizing that you honestly cannot imagine life without this person.
I am your person. I know you well. Do you honestly think you are not experiencing it now?
If you are really being honest with yourself, you will realize that you are falling in love…if you’re not there yet.
It’s just you are a complicated, stubborn man. You are so focused on the physical qualities and sexual attraction that you are ignoring what is right in front of you. Your mind cannot wrap around the fact that the person who is perfect for you does not look like the person you wish to have.
You are in denial. You’re conflicted. You did not want to acknowledge the truth because the truth is scary. The truth means deviation from who is your ideal type. The truth is that you are falling in love with her even if she is the last person you expected to fall in love with.
You said you’ve never been in love, but when you mention all the qualities you are looking for in a perfect match, you know exactly who have those qualities. Only one woman fit the bill. She is already in your life. It’s just,in your mind, she does not physically match your type.
So you go on dates looking for someone who matches your ideal type but have the personality and qualities identical to her. You’re searching for someone else when the person that is perfect for you is right under your nose.
You always fail. There is always something missing. You can’t figure it out.
So you engage in friends with benefits situations, go out on one night stands, hook up with random women, hoping to fill the void in your life. You are insisting that you only wanted a physical relationship and you’re not ready for any commitment.
So you let your body belong to other women but your heart is gravitating to that one person that you know, deep down, is the one really meant for you.
When will you open your eyes and realize that you can’t find what you’re looking for in other women because as attractive as they are, deep down, you know they’re not her.
She is someone who knows you so well, like the back of her hand. She knows your quirks, your fears, your likes, your loves. She knows your flaws, your weaknesses. She knows how fucked up you are as a person but she still loves you anyway.
You are so comfortable around her that you were not afraid to be the real you when you are with her. You know she will not walk away or judge you. You know she will always be there for you. She does not have to tell you. You just know.
You trust her with your life. You respect her ideas. You value her inputs. She taught you how to be a better person and because of her, you wanted to be a better person.
She supports your dreams, helps you in achieving them and encourages you to be the best version of yourself.
She makes you feel valued, loved and cherished.
She is honest with you and calls you out for your transgressions. She is blunt with you when you need to know the truth. She made you want to improve yourself.
She brings out the best in you.
You think about her often. No matter how busy you are, you carve time to contact her and ask her about her day. You are concerned about her well being and always want to make sure she is safe when you are far apart.
She is the last person you contact as you wind up your long day. You can be tired and sleepy but you still make sure she knows that you are home.
She is the person you need most in your life. She is the one that you can’t live without.
You even told her that there is something between the two of you and you don’t want to mess it up. It’s as if subconsciously you’re realizing your true feelings.
I hope that you get to the point where you realize that you have experienced love.
You are falling in love right now. You just need to open your eyes and accept it.
I hope you don’t make me wait too long. I am already there.