It’s not so hard to blame myself. I could have been better. I could have loved better. I could have been more patient. I could have done this and done that. But none of that will ever change anything anymore.
My standards were very high until it got depleted bit by bit here and there, until I didn’t have any left at all. All these forced loves to force-feel things just left a bigger hole where your heart should be.
You have to realize that forcing yourself to the wrong person is just keeping you away from the right one. You don’t deserve to cry. You don’t deserve to be curling in pain, yet you allow yourself to.