There was a time where I thought, we would have been great, and you were the first person who made me feel great. So, of course, I was going to think that. We were young and life was so good but falling apart at the same time. All I knew is that I didn’t want it to end.
The late night drives, the sweet text messages, the food we would devour and the school events that you always made me want to be a part of. Two years later and I still think about it. Is that crazy? Is that strange? Am I just an obsessive person? Do I get too attached? Have I just not found someone that I have clicked with more, is that why?
I think it would have been harder for me if we decided to give it a try. To test our summers together and not anything else. I think it would have killed me. I know now, that I had to find myself these last two-year on my own. I had to live, be free and find myself all on my own.
Do I ever think about what life could have been like that? Of course, I’m a hopeless romantic first and foremost so yes, I do. But does that mean I would want it, probably not.
You gave me the light at a time, where I didn’t think I needed it or wanted it. You gave me the confidence to move forward and remember who I am and what I could do. I hope you’re doing well.
So thank you, I wouldn’t be here without you.