This Is For The Ones Who Don’t Know What’s Wrong, Just That There Is

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Sometimes we feel like there’s something wrong, we know there’s something wrong, but we just don’t know what it is. We feel lost, confused, and overwhelmed, and we don’t know why. Our chests just feel heavy and our brains are foggy.

It’s exasperating. You just want to take your head off your body, open it up, and yell What’s wrong with you?!

You don’t feel motivated. You’re up from bed, but you’re just on your phone doing nothing. You know you should be doing something, but you can’t concentrate on anything. It’s not that you don’t want to, you just can’t. Your thoughts just feel muddled together, and you can’t figure out what you want. You can’t figure out what’s wrong.

You want to be better, but how are you supposed to fix something when you don’t know what’s wrong? It’s like going to a doctor in pain, but not being able to pinpoint where the pain is; everything just hurts.

You want to burst out in tears because it’s all so confusing. You’re not sure what you want to do in life, you’re just lost. Should you go out? Should you find another job? Should you get off your phone? Yes, I should, you think. But you don’t. Not because you don’t want to but because it’s hard, because you don’t have the energy.

It’s easier to watch movies on Netflix and read fictional books because when you’re lost in those worlds, there’s no need to think about anything else. You don’t have to think about how hard life is, you can just escape all of it.

I understand. It sucks. It really fucking sucks, and maybe you don’t want to hear this, maybe you’re tired of it, but I’m going to say it anyway. I’m going to say it because I believe it with every inch of my soul, and I want you to believe it, too.

You’re going to be okay. Actually, you’re going to be better than okay. You’re going to be brilliant, and you’re going to overcome this and kick some serious ass. I fucking promise you that.

You’re probably young. Maybe 21 or 27, or I don’t know, but the point is, you’re young. When you’re young (hell, even when you’re old) sometimes life is really confusing. You don’t know what you’re going to with it, you don’t know where to go or what to do, or if you do know, you don’t know how.

That’s okay. If you’re beating yourself up right now for not knowing where you’re headed, stop that right now. That’s okay, you’re okay. You’re not alone in this, that’s another promise I can make you. There’s an abundance of 20-somethings out there that feel the exact same way that you do.

So just go ahead and drop that weight. Lift it up, and throw it all the way down to hell. You don’t need it, and it’s just going to continue to drag you down, so let it go.

Life is hard right now. I am so sorry this is happening to you, but I need you to do one thing for me. Just one.

I need you to keep having hope.

I need you to remain hopeful that in the end, it’s all going to be alright. I need you to believe in your strength, and your capability to overcome every single obstacle the Universe throws at you. Now more than ever, I need you to believe in yourself, okay?

Remain confused, but trust that you’re going to figure shit out. Trust that you’re being guided, and that you’re so intelligent. You’re smart enough to get out of whatever the hell is going on. I understand that it doesn’t feel like that right now, but I have no doubt (literally 0 doubt) in my mind that you’ve got this.

I genuinely and truly believe that you’re an incredible human being who can achieve amazing things. Do you want to know how I know that?

Because you’re here right now. Because you saw the title, and it resonated, and you clicked it. That tells me that you’re willing to listen to my words. (Well, not listen, but you know what I mean.) That means you want to get better, and that you know you can get better.

I know that you can achieve great things because you’re still here—living, breathing, fighting. You have not given up yet. You’re still on Earth, willing to figure out what the hell is going on. Even though life is tough, you’re still want to try!

Isn’t that something that deserves to be celebrated? Something that should be acknowledged? See, the thing is that we get so caught up on all the bad shit that we forget to acknowledge the fact that we haven’t given up yet.

You’re such an awesome person, I can’t even comprehend it. I am so proud of you.

I know I’m just a 20-year-old stranger, and these are just words that you’ve probably read over and over again, but I am so proud of you.

Stop beating yourself up. Don’t give up. Keep fighting. You’re one strong, brave, and resilient motherfucker. You got this. TC mark

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