I’m Moving 827 Miles Away From Home With My Boyfriend, And I’m Pretty Scared

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Moving to another state when you’ve never left your house is pretty darn scary. It’s even more frightening when it’s 827 miles away.

Imagine moving to another state where you know not one person besides your significant other. It’s a chance for you to start over and be whomever you want to be. You can be a whole different person because well, not a soul knows your past or who you were before you moved. They don’t know a thing about you. It’s a clean and fresh start.

Choosing to move to Tennessee was the biggest decision I’ve made in my life. It’s a huge deal for two reasons: my boyfriend and I had never moved away, instead we lived in our parents houses until our mid-twenties, which is what everyone is doing these days. Also, we’ve only been together for a mere 15 months. That part doesn’t bother me as much though because a few months back, I moved in with him and his folks and we got along well. We cooked our own meals, did chores around the house, did our laundry and went food shopping.

I started packing up my belongings and it hit me. I will be leaving my comfort zone, my safe haven, the place I grew up in and moving 12 hours away. It’s hard for me to deal with change. I tend to shy away from it because I simply cannot handle it.

But, my boyfriend and I mutually decided to move because he obtained a good job and I’ve always wanted to live in Tennessee. You’re probably wondering– why Tennessee? Plain and simple: I love the south. Also, even though I hate change, it would be nice to live in a state where apartments aren’t over $1,000 per month and the people are friendly.

To be honest, I am scared shitless. For the time being, I’m fine with my decision, but after we move and get settled, I have a feeling it will hit me extremely hard. I know I’ll be a ball of emotion the first week or two. I’m not an emotional person, but when no one is looking, I’ll breakdown— guaranteed.

I know this is the right decision because we both dislike where we’re at and want a change of scenery. The thing about it is we’re both going to be in the same emotional state of mind. I’ll be able to relate to him and he’ll relate to me.

The reality is: we will only have each other. We won’t have family, friends or anyone to help us. We will be out on our own without protection. But, at 25 and 26, it’s time to blossom and grow the hell up. We’ll learn so much about each other, adulthood, and independence.

I’m heading down without a job in line and that makes me nervous and worrisome. I know I’ll eventually find something, but the last thing I want is to fight about money. I won’t be able to handle fighting and bickering because my emotions will be all over the place. I know I’ll be a wreck, but it’s all about learning and growing as a person. From this, I know I’ll become a much stronger person and that’s exactly what I need. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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