We show all the signs of a blossoming couple. We look at each other for a little too long. We hug for a little too long. We allow silence to stretch between us for a little too long.
We choose to sit close enough for our shoulders to brush, our thighs to touch, our fingers to overlap. We glance at lips. We smile into eyes.
We have never said the words I like you aloud but our body language has implied it.
You can deny your feelings for me all you want, you can keep pretending we are only friends, but everyone knows the truth. You aren’t as good an actor as you think. Even though you have been trying to play it cool and hide your heart away, it has been dangling from your sleeve.
You don’t look at me the way a friend is supposed to look at another friend. You don’t treat me the same way you treat everybody else. You want me as much as I want you. I think it’s time for us to do something about that, for us to change the nature of our relationship.
We do not have to complicate our feelings. We do not have to overanalyze our situation. We can give into our desires without worrying about the repercussions. We can choose to leave our comfort zones and take a risk on each other.
Maybe crossing invisible boundaries will lead to a hot fling. Maybe it will lead to a serious relationship. Or maybe it will destroy our friendship altogether.
At this point, it doesn’t make a difference to me. I’m sick of pretending to be your friend when I secretly want more from you. I’m tired of holding myself back from holding your hand, from running my fingers through your hair, from planting a kiss on you.
I am confident I’m not the only one who feels this way. The sexual tension between us is unmissable. Whenever we are alone in a room together, we gravitate as close to each other as possible. Whenever there are strangers around, getting in the way of one-on-one time, we find each other’s eyes from across the room.
I understand why you are hesitant to admit how you feel about me, but you should really stop mislabeling our sexual tension as friendship. You should stop acting like nothing is going on between us. You don’t have to keep pretending. You don’t have to lie to me.
If you want to date me, tell me. If you want to sleep with me, tell me. If you aren’t sure exactly what you want from me, tell me. Speak from your heart. Be vocal about your feelings. Let me know where you stand because acting like we are only friends isn’t going to cut it anymore.
We have gotten past the point of pretending we mean nothing to each other, so stop mislabeling our relationship. Stop referring to me as a friend. We both know I’m more than that.