I am slowly learning to stop assuming everything bad that could possibly happen is going to happen. I am not going to picture horrible things happening inside my head. I am not going to allow my fears to control me.
I am not going to waste my time trying to predict the future when there is no way for me to guess what is going to happen. I am not going to psych myself out by running through a million different scenarios through my head before leaving the house. I am not going to convince myself there are only horrible things awaiting me in the future because there is no telling what the day will bring.
From now on, I am not going to miss out on my chance at happiness because I am too worried about what is going to happen five seconds from now, five hours from now, five days from now. I am learning to live in the moment, to enjoy my peace while it lasts, instead of bracing myself for whatever is coming next.
I am slowly learning to stop thinking the worst of people — especially of myself. When someone takes a little too long to answer a message, I am not going to assume they hate me and are purposely ignoring me. I am not going to freak out about what I might have done wrong and how I was stupid for contacting them in the first place.
From now on, I am going to give others the benefit of the doubt. I am going to breathe deeper. I am going to calm down. I am going to avoid overthinking because it only leads me down a dark path of self-hatred and self-loathing.
I am slowly learning little things are not the end of the world. No one is going to notice when I stumble over my words or trip while I’m walking down the sidewalk. If they do, they will forget about it in a matter of minutes. They are not focused on me. They are focused on what they are doing, how they are feeling, how they are coming across.
There is no reason for me to dwell on the embarrassing things I have done in the past because no one cares about them except for me. They are not a big deal to anyone except for me. I have to remember that my mistakes belong in the rearview mirror, not in the passenger seat.
I am slowly learning to put more faith in myself. I am not going to assume everyone at a party will hate me. I am not going to assume an interviewer will turn down my resume. I am not going to assume I am not experienced enough, not pretty enough, not talented enough.
I am slowly learning to stop awaiting the worst case scenario. I am slowly learning to abandon my pessimistic way of thinking. I am slowly learning to hold onto hope that things will get better.