I Am Slowly Learning To Chase After What I Want

Nothing worthwhile in this world is going to be handed to me, which is why I cannot let myself slack. I cannot live a life of laziness. I cannot procrastinate, waiting forevermore for the perfect moment because the perfect moment has already passed. It was yesterday. And the next perfect moment is today.

I am slowly learning to chase after what I want because nothing is going to fall into my lap. Not love. Not money. Not friendships. Not careers. I am never going to be met with a miracle that forces the puzzle pieces of my future to fit together in a way that makes sense.

If there is something I want, I have to break out of my comfort zone and chase after it. I have to run full-speed because half-measures are never going to be good enough. I need to put effort into my dreams every single day. I have to speak up, reach out, increase my pace day by day.

I need to ask friends to hang out instead of waiting for them to send the first text. I need to make a move on crushes instead of waiting for them to approach me. I need to apply for the positions I want because my talent is not going to get me anywhere without hard work.

I need to stop finding excuses and start finding motivation. I need to do the right thing for future-me instead of the easy thing for present-me.

I am slowly learning to chase after what I want because the what ifs have been driving me mad lately. I am sick of wondering what would have happened if I accepted a job offer or admitted my feelings for someone or put more effort into a friendship. I do not want anymore regrets tying me to the past.

I want to be able to say I tried my best in every situation. Even if I end up miserable at the end of the day, I at least want to know that I tried, that I put in the effort, that there was nothing else I could have possibly done to change my end results.

I am slowly learning to chase after what I want because even though there is a possibility of failing at anything I attempt, remaining stationary is a surefire way to fail. I am not going to throw away my dreams out of fear. I am not going to stunt my own growth.

I am determined to make something of myself, to live a life far above ordinary. Reaching success is not going to happen overnight but I will gradually see results. I will take a step forward every single day and if I ever fall back, I will not let a single mistake convince me to give up. Stumbling does not mean falling. Falling does not mean quitting.

I am going to keep chasing after my dreams until my feet give out. And then I am going to get some rest, get myself healed, and try again.