I Cannot Make My Feelings Any More Obvious

I Cannot Make My Feelings Any More Obvious
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I have made my feelings abundantly obvious. I have done everything short of looking you directly in the eyes and saying, “I like you. Now, please ask me out.”

I have liked all of your selfies. I have complimented you on everything, from your sense of humor to your music taste to your haircuts. I have made a point to look my best and wear the perfume you like every time there is even the slightest chance of running into you.

I have remembered your birthday without being reminded by social media. I have lost sleep in order to text back and forth with you for just a little bit longer. I have chosen the closest seat to you and touched you for any reason I could come up with.

I have texted you first and kept conversations going, even when you were making that difficult. When you would reply with one word or an emoji, I would find a way to get you talking again. I came up with interesting topics. I made you laugh. I put effort into our conversations.

I have surprised you with snacks and presents that you passively mentioned liking to show you that I am willing to go out of my way for you and that I have been paying attention to you when you speak. I have been thoughtful. I have been sincere. I have done things for you that I have not even done for my closest friends.

I have gotten jealous when you brought up other girls. I have dropped hints about how I am still single. I have given you a million opportunities to ask me on a date, but I feel like you are still oblivious.

Maybe you haven’t made a move because you don’t feel the same way. Maybe you are already aware of how I feel and are ignoring my signals as a way to let me down easy. But I have a feeling that is not the case. I don’t think you even realize I am interested in you — and I’m not sure how that’s possible.

Maybe it’s because you are self-conscious. Maybe it’s because you have been misreading my signals. Maybe it’s because you haven’t been paying close enough attention.

I don’t know what else I can do to show much I like you, aside from leaning close and kissing you flush against the lips — but that is not going to happen because I cannot tell if you feel the same way. I can never guess what is running through your mind, which drives me nuts, considering I have made my feelings perfectly clear.

I’m not sure whether you like me back and aren’t sure what to do about it — or whether you don’t see me that way and intend on staying friends.

The only thing I know for sure is that I cannot make my feelings any more obvious. I cannot hint any harder about how I feel.

I like you. You should see that by now. Everybody else does. TC mark

The truth is that you can be struggling and still be loved.

You don’t have to solve your whole life tonight. You just have to show up and try. Focus on the most immediate thing in front of you. You’ll figure out the rest along the way.

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