Maybe This Is Going To Last A Lifetime

Maybe This Is Going To Last A Lifetime
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I am a pessimist. I try not to get my hopes up because I don’t want to end up disappointed. I keep my expectations low in order to protect my heart. That’s the way it has always been. Until I met you.

When my head is resting against your chest and your arm is draped around me, it feels like home. You are the first person who was able to successfully convince me of my worth. When you look at me, I feel beautiful. When you touch me, I feel unstoppable. You have given me a confidence that has never existed before.

Of course, you have done more than increase my self-esteem. You have changed my entire thought process.

Before we met, I never thought that I was going to find love. I thought every boy was either going to use me for sex or break my heart with rejection. I thought no one would ever want me — and I thought I was better off that way.

I convinced myself that staying single made the most sense because no one could hurt me that way. I liked being alone. I planned on spending the rest of my days that way.

I don’t feel that way anymore. Now, I am more optimistic. I look forward to the future because you are going to be there. You keep swearing you are not going anywhere.

It’s scary to have this much trust in someone. You could hurt me so easily if you wanted — but I am hoping you never will.

You have made me believe that maybe not all relationships end in disaster. Maybe not all hearts get broken. Maybe true love does exist and is staring me right in the face. Maybe this relationship is the one that is going to stick, the one that will never end.

Maybe all of my past fears were wrong. Maybe my baggage is not going to keep me from a lifetime of happiness. Maybe I am not going to die alone. Maybe I am going to become a common cliche with a wedding ring on my finger and a baby on my hip like I have always secretly wanted.

It took me a long time to realize this, but maybe love is worth the risk. Maybe I will look back and say that the best decision of my life was taking a chance on you. Maybe it’s okay that I have no idea what the future holds, because I have confidence that we will be able to handle it together.

Maybe, despite all of my worries, we are going to have a chance to live happily ever after. Maybe, if we put in enough effort, we will still be this happy years from now. Maybe I am never going to be single again.

I am so happy that I met you, that you inspired this change of thought, because maybe you really are my person. Maybe this relationship is the real deal. Maybe this is going to last a lifetime. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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