I Am Slowly Learning To Give Myself More Credit

Give Myself More Credit
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I am slowly learning that I don’t give myself enough credit. I am my own biggest critic. No matter how much I accomplish in a day, in a week, in a year, I still feel like I haven’t done enough. I still feel like I am falling behind.

Even when I succeed in something, I become awkward whenever someone congratulates me on it. I act like it isn’t a big deal, because I feel like I do not deserve any praise.

Because of my self-deprecating ways, I think some people are under the impression that everything I have came easily to me, that it arrived overnight without me having to lift a finger, which is the opposite of the truth.

I work my ass off. I put effort into every single thing I do. I am not half-assing anything. I am not letting myself act lazy. I work my hardest every single day. I do not take breaks often. I keep going. I keep fighting.

That is the reason why I rarely have time to see my friends. That is the reason why I never get enough sleep. And that is the reason why I have gotten where I am today.

I am slowly learning that — although it upsets me when people assume my world is easy — it doesn’t matter whether anyone else sees how much heart and soul I am putting into my passions. It doesn’t matter if they applaud my work. I do not need their validation. I need to start impressing myself.

I am slowly learning to give myself more credit because even if I cannot see any progress yet, the fact that I am continuing to go without results proves how dedicated I am. It shows that I am a warrior. I am not going to give up on myself. I am going to succeed, even if I suffer fifty failures beforehand.

After all, I am not chasing my dreams for anyone else. I am doing it selfishly, to reach personal fulfillment. And since I am doing all of this for myself, I should start recognizing how much work I have been putting in. I should be kinder to myself.

I am slowly learning to give myself more credit because what I have accomplished is impressive. It is worth celebrating. I do not have to keep my excitement inside. I do not have to sell myself short when I should know my self-worth.

I am allowed to be happy about what I have earned, even if I feel like I should be further ahead by now. I am allowed to brag about what I have accomplished, even if that makes me sound cocky and conceited. I am allowed to be happy for myself, because I have spent so damn long feeling miserable and hating myself.

I am allowed to be proud of myself for a change. I am allowed to cherish this moment where I don’t feel like a lazy piece of shit because I’m not sure how long it is going to last. TC mark

This is me letting you go

If there’s one thing we all need to stop doing, it’s waiting around for someone else to show up and change our lives. Just be the person you’ve been waiting for.

At the end of the day, you have two choices in love – one is to accept someone just as they are and the other is to walk away.

We owe it to ourselves to live the greatest life that we’re capable of living, even if that means that we have to be alone for a very long time.

“Everyone could use a book like this at some point in their life.” – Heather

Let go now

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