I Want To Be A Better Person

I want to be the kind of person who lets go of grudges instead of holding onto anger for years and letting it tear me apart. I want to be able to forgive. I want to be able to move past the shitty things that have happened in my past. I want to drop my baggage and move forward into my future. 

I want to be the kind of person who always looks on the bright side instead of assuming everything is going to fall apart eventually. I hate how I expect the worst. I want to remain optimistic. I want to believe good things are bound to happen. I want to be excited about tomorrow instead of dreading what might go down.

I want to be the kind of person who can strike up a conversation with anyone anywhere instead of having trouble forming complete sentences in group settings. I want to be able to socialize without getting butterflies caught in my stomach. I want to put myself out there without freaking out about what other people might say about me. 

I want to be the kind of person who gives without expecting anything in return instead of continuing my selfish streak. I want to spread love. I want to encourage peace. I want to feel good about doing good instead of only caring about myself. 

I want to be the kind of person who is overflowing with confidence instead of thinking so low of myself. I want to love the person staring back in the mirror. I want to hold my head high. I want to believe I can accomplish anything. I want to believe that I am worthy of love and success.

I want to be the kind of person who congratulates other people on their accomplishments instead of secretly seething with jealousy because in my mind, anyone who accomplishes their dreams is doing better than me. Because I turn every little thing into a competition and start moping when I’m not the one in the spotlight. 

I want to be the kind of person who is willing to take chances instead of attempting to blend into the background. I want to forward my career. I want to take risks for love. I want to find my courage and take steps forward instead of remaining stuck in the same place. 

I want to be the kind of person who goes out of the way to help others instead of turning down invitations out of inconvenience. I want my loved ones to feel like they can always rely on me. I want them to trust that I will be there for them, no matter what time of night they need me.

I want to be the kind of person who has faith things are going to get better instead of being such a skeptic. I want to see the beauty in this world. I want to appreciate every moment of my existence.

I want to be a better person — and I am actively trying to change myself every single day. I am trying to make myself proud.