I’m A Better Person When I’m With You

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When I’m with you, I don’t want to be guarded anymore. I don’t want to push you away. I don’t want to pretend I’m better off alone. I want to tell you everything. I want to whisper my secrets. I want to tell stories about my childhood. I want to open up about the things I usually keep from friends. I want to hand you my whole heart because I trust that you will keep it safe.

When I’m with you, I don’t want to be negative anymore. I don’t want to dwell on the past. I don’t want to worry about what already happened. I want to look forward to our future together. I want to get excited about tomorrow — and excited about this moment, right now.

When I’m with you, I don’t want to be selfish anymore. I don’t want to put myself first. I want to make you a priority. I want to share everything with you. My bed. My sweatshirts. My sheets. My entire life. I don’t want to do it alone anymore. I want you with me all the time. I want to take this journey together. I never want to let you go.

When I’m with you, I don’t want to be controlling anymore. I don’t want to ‘wear the pants’. I don’t want to be in charge. I want to make decisions together. I want to act as a team. I want to compromise with you so we both end up satisfied at the end of the day.

When I’m with you, I don’t want to be dishonest anymore. I don’t want to bend the truth. I don’t want to tell little white lies. I want you to see the real, flawed, authentic me. I want you to trust me. I want you to be able to rely on me. I want you to feel like you can count on me.

When I’m with you, I don’t want to be lazy anymore. I don’t want you to be the one stuck doing all the work. I don’t want a one-sided relationship. I want us both to put in effort. I want to work my ass off to keep our relationship strong because I would never want to lose you or make you feel neglected.

When I’m with you, I don’t want to be uncooperative anymore. I don’t want to hide my feelings away. I don’t want to fib about being fine. I want to have an open and honest relationship with you. I want to let you inside of my mind. I want you to know even the most embarrassing things about me.

When I’m with you, I don’t want to be ungrateful anymore. I don’t want to walk all over you. I don’t want to take you for granted. I want you to know how much I appreciate you. I want you to know how much I love you and how I never want to lose you.

I’m a much better person when you are in the room with me. You make me want to be kinder. Sweeter. More upbeat. More hopeful. I want to be the best possible version of myself, because you deserve the best of me.