Open your eyes. He is not your knight in shining armor. He is not your soulmate. He is not your forever person. He is not even a good guy. He is a complete piece of shit who makes your world more stressful than it is supposed to be.
He treats you horribly and you keep forgiving him. You keep putting in effort to resuscitate the relationship. No matter what he does to you, you make the decision to stay with him. You want to make things work, even though it’s clear everything between you is broken beyond repair.
You can keep making excuses for him until you’re blue in the face. You can convince yourself that he is eventually going to change because he loves you and you do everything for him and he would be stupid to let you go. You can tell yourself you are thinking with logic, but you are really only thinking with your heart. You aren’t listening to the voice in the back of your head warning you to stay away from him.
What you are not understanding is that boys like him do not see reason. They only do what is best for themselves. They don’t care about you. When they see an attractive woman, your face doesn’t pop into their head, reminding them to stay loyal. They listen to what their genitals are telling them. They do what feels best in the moment without any thought about what might happen in the future.
When they want another beer because their day was stressful and they need a release, they don’t think about the possibility of how loud and violent they are going to get. They don’t think about how you are going to be the one left cleaning up their messes once the day is done. At any given point, they are only thinking about what is best for them, not what is best for you or for the both off you.
When they want to do something, they do it without taking your feelings into consideration. They don’t understand what it means to be in a loving, caring, balanced relationship. They don’t want to understand.
It doesn’t matter how much you love him. It doesn’t matter how many chances you give him. It doesn’t matter if you are the best thing that has ever happened to him and make his life much easier than it would be with anybody else. He is never going to stop being a piece of shit. This is the way he is. He is never going to change. He is never going to stop disappointing you.
The only person who can fix this situation is you. You have to leave before it gets worse. You have to get the hell out of there because he is not worth a second of your time and soon you will realize that. Soon you will wonder why you stayed for so long when there were much better things out there for you.