Are We Officially Over — Or Am I Supposed To Wait For You?

You have disappeared out of the blue before, but you always came back. You eventually texted me and asked to hang out and acted like everything was normal between us. That is what makes our situation so confusing.

I never know whether you are leaving for a short amount of time again or whether you are gone for good this time. I never know whether I am supposed to move on from you or whether I should wait for your return.

Either way, I will find a way to survive. I just want an answer. I hate having no idea what is running through your mind. I hate feeling like I am left in the dark.

I don’t want to flirt with other guys just in case you are planning on coming back and turning our relationship into a real one — but I also don’t want to turn down dates with other guys because I wrongly assume you still have feelings for me. I don’t want to miss out on something new because I am stuck on something old.

I’m not sure what I am supposed to do. If you are going to come back, I am stupid enough to wait for you. I don’t have a problem with that. You are the only one I want right now anyway.

But I don’t want to pointlessly daydream about you if you are finished with me. I don’t want to take more time than necessary to get over you. I want to start the healing process. I want closure.

It’s unfair to leave me with so many questions. I have no idea whether we are still working toward a relationship and I need to be patient or whether you are already interested in someone else and I need to move on.

I’m not asking for anything crazy. I’m only asking for you to talk to me. Tell me what you are thinking. Let me know whether you intend to turn me into your person or whether you are officially finished with me.

It will hurt to hear the latter, but I would rather know the truth than guess, than wonder, than wait for a return that will never come.

I think, after everything we have been through together, I deserve to know what is running through your mind. I deserve to know whether you have distanced yourself from me because you are busy, because you are scared, because you are playing hard to get — or because you have no interest in continuing our love story.

I want to know how you feel about me. I want to know whether you are going to text me for another date sometime soon or whether I am the last thing on your mind. I want to know whether a relationship might happen between us eventually or whether that is no longer a possibility.

I want to know whether we are officially over or whether I am supposed to wait for you.