I don’t want to kiss you goodbye at midnight, drive home alone, and fall asleep inside of an empty bed. I want to sleep alongside you with my arms draped across your chest. I want you to nudge me awake whenever I have nightmares. I want to wake up in the morning with your breath still in my ears and share breakfast before we both leave for work.
I don’t want to commute to see you. I want to walk into the other room and see you sitting on the couch, reading a book or watching a movie. I want to know that you are only a few feet away from me at any given time, because whenever you’re around, I feel safer. More comfortable. More at home.
I don’t want to text you when I have something exciting to tell you. I want to call your name and watch you walk into the room. I want to tell you my stories in person. I want to have more conversations face-to-face instead of being stuck talking over a screen.
I don’t want to miss out on seeing you on the days when our schedules are busy. I want to see you during the in-between moments. When I wake up in the morning, before I leave for work. When I stop home for five minutes to grab a change of clothes. I want to cross paths with you more often. I want to see your face more often.
I don’t want to have two separate places where we have to pick and choose where to go on weekends. I want to share a bedroom. Share a bathroom. Share a couch. Share a fridge. Share a life. I am willing to give you everything I have if you’re willing to do the same.
I don’t only want to see you when my makeup is on and my clothes are clean. I want to see you when I’m in the best mood and the worst mood. I want you to see me crying my eyes out, looking like a mess. I want you to see every single side of me. I want you to know me better than I know myself.
I don’t want to waste time missing you, wishing that you were there, while you are wishing the same exact thing. I want to live with you, I want to grow alongside you, because for some reason, you are one of the people who I never get sick of being around. You are one of the people I can imagine keeping in my world forever.
I don’t want to swivel in and out of your life. I want to be a permanent part of it. I want to take our relationship to the next level. I want to start our happily ever after now.
I don’t want to live without you anymore. I want to see you when I get home from work. When I wake up in the morning. When I climb out of the shower and climb into bed. I want you there, with me, forever.