She always ends up in almost relationships, in texting relationships, in broken relationships — but that’s not her fault.
She keeps getting screwed over, because she gives out a million chances, but no one ever gives her a chance.
When she finds someone that she can see a future with, she puts in all of her energy, but instead of appreciating that and returning the gesture, boys take advantage of how sweet she’s being. They think it means they can use her. That they can avoid her texts, half-ass their effort, and that she’ll still stick around.
But her soft heart shouldn’t be mistaken for low standards. She still has expectations from the boys that she spends time with. However, she understands that everyone makes mistakes, everyone has baggage, and she tries to take that into consideration.
She’s the type of girl that sees the best in people. She ignores their shattered pieces and focuses on what’s left. That’s why she gives out so many compliments, does so many favors. She’s trying to be a positive beacon in this dark world.
Unfortunately, her kindness can come across as obsessive. It might seem like she is clingy and desperate and in need of his attention — but that’s not the reality at all.
She’s just trying to be nice. She’s trying to make a broken boy see his worth. She believes in spreading happiness, encouraging positivity. She wants to cause smiles, not confusion, not tears.
She keeps getting screwed over, because she’s an emotional daredevil. She’s willing to take risks in the name of love. She’ll set aside time for someone, clear out her life to make room for them, and let them into every nook and cranny.
But most boys aren’t interested in exploring her soul. They’re only interested in her body, in superficial details that will keep her close, but not too close. And when the first problem pops up, they always walk away.
But she’s the kind of person that wants to fix what’s broken instead of calling it a lost cause. She has too much hope to let go of a good thing.
She keeps getting screwed over, because she never stops. Never stops loving. Never stops caring. Never stops trying.
It’s always the other person that stops. That ends something that could have been spectacular.
But she isn’t ashamed of her soft heart. She knows that people have abused it in the past, and will attempt to do so again in the future, but she’s smarter now. Pickier.
Now, she can sense when someone wants to take advantage of her warmth and when someone genuinly appreciates all she has to offer. So she’s going to try to be more careful. She’s going to save her love for someone that has earned it.
She knows that person is out there somewhere, even if they are years away from meeting — and she knows that their heart is just as soft as the one beating inside of her.