You’re confusing the hell out of me.
If you aren’t looking for a serious relationship, then why do you spend your nights and early mornings texting me? Why do you get jealous when I mention one of my guy friends? Why do you keep your weekends free so you can spend time with me?
You act like you’re my boyfriend. My friends call you my boyfriend. But you refuse to be labeled as my boyfriend.
We’re already doing all of the things that boyfriends and girlfriends do. We’re having sex. We’re eating meals together. We’re trading intimate details about our lives. And we’re not interested in seeing anybody else.
So what’s the problem? Are you afraid that someone’s feelings are going to get hurt if we make it official? Because, let me tell you something, we’re already in too deep. Label or not, if this ‘relationship’ between us ends, someone is going to get hurt. The feelings are already there, even if the title isn’t in place yet.
So stop acting like we’re just friends. Friends don’t press their lips against your neck. Friends don’t look into your eyes as they orgasm. Friends don’t fall asleep in your arms and pull you closer as they dream.
You can’t keep treating me like your best friend, like your girlfriend, and then chicken out by claiming you aren’t looking for a serious relationship. We’re already in a serious relationship — without the title. I mean, does it really matter what we call it at this point? What matters is how we behave. And we behave like boyfriend and girlfriend.
You behave like you’re falling in love with me.
It’s not that I’m fooling myself into believing your feelings are just as strong as mine are. I’ve been there before. I know when I’m lying to myself, when I’m misreading a situation. But what we have is real. You’re just not ready to admit it. You’re just not ready to date me, even though we’ve basically been dating for months.
I know you like me more than you let on, but that doesn’t mean you get a free pass to play with my heart. And if I’m honest, I really don’t feel like getting hurt again. So you need to make a decision. You need to sort out your baggage and accept that you have feelings for me — accept that I’m your girlfriend and that you’re my boyfriend. Or you need to let me go before things get even more complicated.
I’m not asking for much. All I want is for you to start calling me your partner. Not your friends with benefits. Not your booty call. Not your fuck buddy. Your partner. And, if I believe your actions over your words, you want exactly the same thing as I do.
So, come on already, let’s make it official.