You didn’t deserve to be treated like you were worthless. You didn’t deserve to have your heart shattered into a million little pieces. But you do deserve closure, which is why this is something you need to read.
We’re the biggest cowards you’ll ever meet.
Believe it or not, we didn’t break up with you via text or ghost you, because we wanted to laugh at you behind your back. We’re just cowards. We didn’t want to see the tears in your eyes. Didn’t want to watch a pained expression flick across your face. We actually cared about you, which is why we didn’t want to watch you fall apart. We wanted to distance ourselves as much as we could. It might’ve made the breakup harder on you, but it made it easier on us.
We haven’t forgotten about you.
Even though we’ve dropped all contact with you, that doesn’t mean we’ve forgotten that you exist. Sometimes, we actually feel the urge to get in touch with you. But the last thing we want to do is text you or call you, because we don’t want to give you false hope. We don’t want to break your heart all over again. We’re shitty, but we’re not that shitty.
We don’t expect you to forgive us.
Even though we acted like you were the problem and refused to take responsibility for our actions, we’re not delusional. We can lie our asses off to you and to our friends, but we can’t lie to ourselves. We know that we were the ones in the wrong. We know that we hurt someone who never would’ve hurt us. We know that we’re pieces of shit.
We thought we were doing the right thing.
Have you ever done something stupid, but justified it by coming up with some bullshit logic that made you feel better about yourself? Well, that’s what we did when we broke your heart. We twisted reality to make it seem like ghosting you or breaking up with you via text was our best option. We told ourselves whatever we had to to make ourselves feel like we weren’t actually the bad guys.
We still think you’re amazing.
“It’s not you. It’s me.” The line may seem cliche, but it’s the truth. You were quite the catch. Unfortunately, we weren’t capable of giving you what you needed. Or maybe we just didn’t click. Either way, we regret the way we let things end, but we don’t regret the fact that it ended. We just weren’t meant to be together.
We hope it doesn’t take you too long to move on.
We don’t want to be the person you fantasize about every night before bed. We don’t want to be the “one who got away.” We don’t want to be the only reason why you’re still single. Even though there was a time when we made you miserable, we genuinly want you to be happy. We hope you learn to stay away from people like us, and find someone who truly deserves you.
We don’t want you to want us.
We’d love your forgiveness, but we don’t want your sympathy. Even if you’re able to see the situation from our point of view now, we still did something shitty. We’re still bad news. So don’t start thinking about getting back together with us. It’s the wrong move. Keep your standards high and find someone who would never dream of fucking you over like we have.