I’m Ending ‘Us’ Before You Do

We are not on the “Us” stage yet, but I’m ending this now.

I want to be “The Girl” for once. To be the girl you will prove yourself to. The girl you’ll strive to be with. The girl who could be the reason you want to do better, be better. The girl who’ll you’ll give everything and do everything just to make her happy.

And even though I want to convince you that I am her. I don’t want to.

I learned well enough that love, affection and relationships do not need convincing.

That I don’t need to prove myself worthy of your attention first and then urge you to stay later.

You may make me feel rejected right now. But I know that walking away this early will do me great favor in the future.

I like you. I like talking to you. I like spending time with you. I like you.

But not enough for me to slide back to who I was before. I like you, but not enough to put myself in a position where I always question my worth base on your interest in me.

I like you, but I love myself.

I can be “The Woman” that a guy will tell his friends so passionately, like how Aladdin described Jasmine to Genie. I can be the “She’s the one” to a guy who will not rest just to make sure I know exactly how he feels for me. I can be the woman who men fight for. I can be “The love of my life” woman for the guy who knows what he wants in his life.

Because I’m no longer the girl that offers her everything for a boy’s fleeting attention. No longer the girl who encourages and fights for an egotistical boy who doesn’t know who he is and what he wants to achieve in life.

So I’m ending this,

whatever this is between us, so I can continue moving forward.

Because once a guy kneels in front of me, I will see to it that he will stand proud to anyone knowing that I’m his.

When that day comes, it will be glorious.