This Is How We Will End

woman standing on beach
Joyce Huis

This is not a story about how we met but rather the story of how we will end.

Truly it’s love when it makes you feel so right. And it’s still love even if it let you fall down so many times.

You’ve torn me to pieces and I failed to pick myself up again. And that’s where it all spiraled down.

I thought of giving you up more times than I actually did. I was so afraid to end up alone. But now let me let you go. I will no longer let myself stay on an enclosed door. I’ve gone the farthest I can go.

Thank you for coming into my life even in a short while. I can’t give you anything more than I’ve given you for the past year and a month or two. It’s been a wild ride with you and believe me when I say I enjoyed every second of it with you.

You touched my soul in a way no one else could. A perfect grace I tried to hold on to. God knows how much we tried. At least we tried.

Often times I wonder why hearts meet even if it weren’t even meant to stay. Why temporary people leave permanent damages? What did I do? Where did we go wrong?

But I’ve come to realize that there’s no answer to everything. Just like the stars on our nights. One day they’re just full of stars until it grew emptier each day. Darker and barren. Until it became nothing and still.

A life with you is a life of happiness I must admit, but I should start relearning it from now on because you will no longer be a part of it. I know it’ll not be an easy process and in someway I’ll regret letting you walk away.

But you’ll remain a good memory, for sure. It’s the least I can do. Because even if I don’t say it, I hope you know that you’re the best thing that’s have ever happened to me.

They say we’re hopeless so I should hope less. I still can’t believe I’m walking out this year or any other year without you now.

I don’t know how to start it all again. All I I know now is I should get used to not being beside you. Not calling your name when I need you. And stop calling you mine because you’re no longer mine. Everything will eventually heal in time. Don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine.

I am wishing you nothing but all the best in life. No grunge or anything. To the girl who will have your heart, I wish she’ll take care of you and cherish you more than you deserve. May she offer everything I failed to give you.

Thank you for passing by, I had the best time.

Don’t die before your death, they say. But if by death it meant seeing you happy. I’d gladly die for you everyday.

My dearest, you’re the realest love l’ve ever had. The greatest, but we have come so far and I have to say goodbye. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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