I know that our story started as once upon a time, but we both also know that our story has no happy ending or happily ever after.
Our story ended so badly that I went as far as begging you while I kneeled in front of you. I didn’t want you to leave me, but what could I have done if you’ve chosen someone else over me and just walked away? I wasn’t enough to let you stay that’s why I need to let you go, even though it hurts.
But even though you hurt me in such a grand way by choosing another person to love, leaving me so easily and dumping all those memories that we had, I will still be here for you.
If you need me, call me. I will be there for you. I will let you cry on my shoulder and I will sing you a lullaby if you couldn’t sleep. If you need someone to talk to, just know that I am free even when I know that I’m busy. I would reschedule my day and adjust my time just so I could accommodate you.
I will be here waiting for your call. I will be here waiting on my front porch to see you walking towards me. I will be in our favorite coffee shop to let you know that I still value what we had.
I will be waiting for the day that you’ll talk to me again.
I should hate you, right? By choosing another person and leaving me broken with no possibility of healing. I shouldn’t let you cry over my shoulder or let myself reschedule my day just for you. I shouldn’t be the one waiting for you, but I couldn’t not be there to you. I couldn’t hate you. I couldn’t hate the person who once loved me and the one I once loved in return.
You hurt me in the most painful and heartbreaking way, but I still forgave you.
I forgave you because that was the only thing I could do.
All I’m saying is that I’ll be here when you need me.
This is me telling you that you could always count on me during your darkest times. This is not to say that you could call me to hookup or makeout when you’re bored, but this is me telling you that I’m not interested in you anymore. I’m here if you need me, but please know that I’m not here waiting for you so we could get back together.
This is me telling you that I once loved you and I wanted to honor our memories together – maybe not as a couple but as people we once were.