To My Soldier As You Begin Your Deployment Journey

couple sitting on ledge
Mickael Tournier

My goal here isn’t to make you cry, but you might. This is just my way of telling you (and everyone else for that matter) how much you truly mean to me.

I love you. I’ll say that first. Next, this is going to be the hardest nine months of my life. I have never been a person to wait. I have been that person who just go-go-go’s. That’s just how it was.

Then I met you. The person that makes me wait.

I would spend every single day of my life waiting if that meant I got to kiss you in the end of the story. I would, and I will. I will be waiting for my next kiss.

You didn’t say goodbye. You said, “Until I see you again.” You melted my heart with that, and through our tears, hugs, and kisses, somewhere between that awful moment of you leaving me, I thought, “I have never loved someone so much in my entire life. If this is what God’s plan is for us, then so be it. I can’t spend my life without you. I will wait forever if I have to.”

These next nine months are going to be spent doing school work, sporting the shirt your mom gave me with your face on it, and overall, just loving you and loving God for bringing you to me.

I will never doubt your love for me. I do not fear you “cheating” on me. I don’t fear you “forgetting” me. I know you won’t. You’ll be waiting on me as much as I will be waiting on you. I trust you whole heartedly.

With that being said, you should never question or doubt my love and dedication to you either. I’m not going anywhere. You are stuck with me now.

This is going to be hard. Studying your face and staring into your eyes as tears rolled down your cheeks before you left was hard. Not seeing you every single day is hard.

Loving you in general is just hard to do. I wouldn’t change it for the world though.

God knows what he is doing. He made two imperfect people, who together are a perfect couple. I say that, but I don’t mean that we never fight, that we never have disagreements. I just mean we were just designed for one another. He made us perfect together. He made you for me. He made you absolutely perfect for me and for me only.

I wish you didn’t have to go. I wish I could keep you home and safe in my arms forever, but I know I can’t do that yet.

The army still owns you for now. I can wish and wish upon those stars, but nothing can change this. So, I will just wait.

Someday, I will wake up and you will be right next to me, snuggled up with your hair a mess and your fingers intertwined with mine. Someday I will get out of bed and we can go make breakfast together again. Someday I will have you every day of my life and I won’t have to wait any longer. No more waiting? This will all be worth it in the end.

I love you. I love you more than I can even begin to explain with words. Words do no justice for the feelings I have towards you. It would be impossible for me to explain such feelings with words that are inadequate. So, I will wait.

I will wait to show you how much I love you. I will wait for your return. I will wait for my kiss. I will wait for my hug. I will wait for your smile. I will wait for your laugh. I will wait for you.

Be safe my dear. Be careful. I love you so very much.

“Until I see you again.”

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