She has spent so many hours tossing and turning
Preoccupied with thoughts that are time-consuming.
When the moon replaces the sun and the silence is deafening
She’s seemingly lost in the depths of the unknown and drowning.
There are still cracks which they failed noticing
They are only hearing and could not capture even an inch of what she’s feeling.
And to see a flicker of light tonight is what she is hoping.
Most of the days, she’s fine and some of the days she’s struggling.
Being caged in your own thoughts and insecurities is exhausting
To the point that it can become so overwhelming.
“Why can’t you put a stop of these thoughts?”, some are asking
It’s a question that she can go on all day explaining.
Yet it will still be far from all of their understanding
Because they will never know how to be in the life that she is living.
Her mind is in constant chaos but is she just overthinking?
She is like a ticking bomb which at any minute will be exploding.
All she desires is peace of mind and happiness without pretending
And for these thoughts to slip through the spaces in between is what she is pining.
And here tonight, her hand on her chest as her heart feels like shattering.
She is looking out the window as tears are silently running.
The time is fading and tomorrow, you can again see her smiling
but no one knows that inside, she is already dead.