It hurts how life can pull us in opposite directions from the ones we love most. Thankfully, we have social media to help us keep in touch. Though I must admit, thinking back on how close we once were, it hurts to only have a one-dimensional view of your beautiful life, through screens and words. It’s even more difficult to keep up with you now, with the way your activity on social media is almost nonexistent these days, except for the posts that your friends and family members include you in, on occasion.
I hope you’re happy. I hope you’re just so enthused with your life, that you forget to post updates on social media, or catch the rest of us up on all of the incredible things that you have been experiencing over the last couple of years. I couldn’t help but notice, you don’t smile in the pictures you are tagged in anymore.
I hope the cameras on everyone’s phones are to blame; Always catching you from the wrong angle, at the wrong time, making your eyelids look heavy and your mouth look drawn down in the corners. I hope it’s just the lighting in the room that is always off, making it difficult to capture that beautiful glow you have always had about you. I hope everyone around you just has really bad timing, always snapping their photos during the one moment when you decide to take a quick breather, and stop being the life of the party. I hope I’m just overanalyzing the pictures that come across my newsfeed. I hope it’s all in my mind.
I hope he isn’t draining you of your energy or dousing your flames. I hope this world hasn’t gotten the best of you. I hope you don’t have to fight with yourself to get out of bed in the mornings, especially when you used to be the main motivation for me to get out of my own.
I hope you’re happy. I hope you carved everything you have ever wanted out of this life. I hope you have surrounded yourself with people who are worthy of your presence. Because clearly, I never was.
I hope you finally got it right.