1. Waiting Is Pain
There is no pain greater than waiting for your loved one to come home to you. It can just be a few weeks, a few months or a few years but I can guarantee you one thing – it’s not going to be an easy wait. They are probably in a different time zone, making communication a little difficult because when he’s asleep, you’re awake and vice versa.
Every single day you’re counting down the months, days, hours and minutes until you can finally be in his arms again and it sucks to have to be reminded every single day that he’s not by your side. Who’s going to cheer you up after a rough day? Sure, you have friends and sure, they’ll cheer you up but it’s never the same, is it?
He’s just not here and it sucks… big time.
Then there’s this constant thought of him at the back of your mind and every little thing you see reminds you of him and the sight of happy couples on the street makes you want to scream out just how much you miss him but you can’t. Not a lot of people might understand how you’re feeling except for him (probably), but then he’s just so far away and he can’t do much because he can’t teleport back to where you are just to hug you or comfort you. (No matter how much you hope he can).
But you don’t want to be sad and mope around all day because he wouldn’t want you to. It’s a constant struggle between giving in to the urge to shut yourself up at home or making yourself so busy that you don’t have time to think about him. (Yet neither method works so you’re just kind of stuck in a limbo, going through the motions whilst still having thoughts of him in your mind).
2. Constantly Checking Your Phone For Texts From Him
Every single text and update from him becomes so valuable and you just miss him so much it hurts. (Literally, making you want to cry because you just miss him. So much.)
Your friends and family comment that you’re being too attached but seriously, who can blame you? You’re so used to seeing him every other day and suddenly you just can’t anymore. What can you do besides waiting for his updates and texting him as much as you can? (And also the fact that time zones are a pain in the a** for video calls sometimes.)
. Video Calling
You can’t possibly be chatting in the middle of the night when you have class or work the next day right? I mean, sure, you can. But there are limitations to how much you can do it because honestly, we need our rest in order to survive the day and not somehow go crazy with the lack of sleep.
And even if you do sacrifice some of your sleep just so you can see distorted images of him and deal with poor connection, it just isn’t the same as having him by your side and soaking up his warmth while he strokes your hair or gives you silly kisses on the forehead. (Cue ugly sobbing.)
Just as John Green wrote in his book, An Abundance of Katherines: “You can never love someone as much as you miss them,” I find this quote especially true and relatable because no words can ever describe how much I miss him and can’t wait for him to come back. (Though I can’t find words to express my love for him as well but let’s just leave it for another time.)