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When I Fantasize About Us Getting Back Together

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There’s been a terrible accident.

You receive a phone call from one of my friends. There’s been a terrible car accident/earthquake/fire and the doctors aren’t sure if I’ll live through the night. Overcome with emotion, you leave your very important meeting and rush to my bedside. Maybe I’m in a coma, or maybe I just have a single sexy scratch on my cheek. It depends on how I’m feeling that day. But seeing me in that state just makes it clear to you that you need me in your life. You touch my hand, tears rolling down your cheeks, and we live happily ever after through a montage of first dances, wedding speeches and park lunches with our three beautiful children.

I become a celebrity.

When I’m not almost dying in freak accidents I’m becoming famous just to get your attention. In one fantasy, my striking looks and sense of humor attract the attention of a director and I get a five-episode story arc on that show you love. In another, I save a group of kindergarten children from a runaway bus. It’s all over the news. You can’t ignore me.

You show up unannounced.

After the accident and celebrity fantasies wear off, we move to a more traditional, you showing up and begging for forgiveness scenario. You can thank romantic comedies for this. First of all, you never call beforehand; you just miss me too much for formalities. It usually begins with me cooking, or working in my non-existent garden when the Legends of the Fall score fades in and there’s a knock at the door. Or maybe I’m hosting a dinner party for my single and bitter girlfriends and you show up for a Jerry Maguire moment.

I have a killer apartment.

Unfortunately showing up unannounced to my parents’ basement where I currently live doesn’t have a great ring to it. Showing up at my loft overlooking the bay, now that sets a scene. There’s usually exposed brick, great hardwood floors and floor to ceiling windows, which are perfect for dramatically staring out of. If you’re lucky, I’ll offer you a drink from my small yet well curated bar. It’s located over here, next to this mid-century credenza.

I’m ten pounds thinner.

I also have perfectly styled hair and a great outfit. Not too sexy, but not exactly an everyday outfit. It’s a look that says I’m beautiful without trying. If this were real life, I would be in my white high school graduation sweatsuit with my hair in a dirty bun. But this is a fantasy world where I always look effortlessly chic, live in a home that can be described as a “space” and you’re still in love with me.

I make you work for it.

I never take you back right away. Even in the darkest parts of my mind, there’s still a little voice that says, this probably isn’t a good idea. So I make you explain yourself. I tell you that I don’t have time for someone who’s going to hum and haw over whether he wants to be with me. Sometimes I go all Carrie Bradshaw on you and say, “I’m someone who is looking for love” and so on. Maybe I slap you (romantic comedies tell me this is okay) or throw a drink from my well curated bar in your face. But every night, over and over again, you convince me that you were wrong, and that we’re meant to be. Then one evening, as I pace back and forth on my hardwood floors, swirling my whiskey in my perfectly manicured hand, I tell you I’m not taking you back. Not tonight, not ever. It’s just not worth it anymore. I ask you kindly, to go. Then I turn and look out at my perfect view of the harbor. I can’t watch you leave. TC mark

image – John Fowler
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  • MARZZ

    AAAH So beautiful :’)

  • angelusgutmann

    loved it. Amazing how people fantasize over the same thing in the same way in so many different places of the world…

    • Anonymous

      makes you feel connected to people all over right? :)

  • Tiffany

    IN LOVE WITH THIS. LOVE. 

  • https://plus.google.com/u/0/104823831473876010792/posts Audrey Lynn

    Brilliant. Love. Absolutely LOVE.

  • Ruth

    Amazing!

  • Sweetpea9852

    So good

  • Mackenzie

    Yes! This! All of this! This is what I picture!

  • Amanda

    Stupid thought catalog writters ! Making me realize my most person thoughts and fantasies are all generic and average ! Nice post though.

  • Oliver Miller

    Welcome to Dumpsville — Population:  You.

  • http://twitter.com/georgiawisdom Georgia

    Thanks, guys!

  • Jessica

    This is exactly what I’m going through right now

  • Heathem89

    my life right now haha

  • Anonymous

    The thing is, jerk, you never actually show up.

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1072327612 Ketsia Leste

    The first one is still on in my mind… it’s horrible how we think about getting physically hurt as if it’s gonna do us any better mentally!  I had one about my ex where I would be about to marry an old-but-physically-fit millionaire and he came crawling and begging me to take him in!! But that was back then… when I didn’t know there always is better than what you left behind– if you’ve moved on, that is! :)
    Cheers^^)

    • http://twitter.com/georgiawisdom Georgia

      Old-but-physically-fit millionaire.  I love it.

  • http://twitter.com/philosolaktor Lakshitha

    How about fantasizing about nonexistant guy? My life is sad. Don’t tell me. :

  • Anonymous

    #1 happened to my cousin. She got diagnosed with cancer and then her ex came running back to take care of her and love her again. Then he broke up with her again while she was deep in the horrors of chemo.

    HEY TODD: YOU’RE AN ASSHOLE

  • stig

    dr messiah of the freemercytemple@yahoo,com cast a love spell for me last week and now i am happily together with my wife,his spell casting is really indeed powerful and i will always try and use his help forever.

  • Kim

    Omg I am not alone. Thank you! Beautiful btw.

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  • kolia

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  • josfi

    i was searching one evening on the internet,because i know that good magicians are still there…but how to get them is a very big problem.after several searches for about 3 hours i inserted the last words..”real spell”into the yahoo search engine.I have a love problem and i need a magical love magic. and this email address came out ehisalextemple@gmail.com i contacted him and told him my love problem after 3 days of his spell my lover returned to me, i am still suprise to believe this will work

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