One of my least favorite feelings in the world is vulnerability. The feeling that you get after you tell someone you love them for the first time, waiting in the coffee shop line alone, or saying no to somebody.
These are simple things that scare me, things that can potentially leave the feeling of rejection or uncomfortableness and definitely the feeling of fear. Somehow these little things also tie into the feeling that surrounds me when it comes to allowing someone to love me again.
After being independent for so long the thought of placing your heart in someone else’s hands is the scariest thing in the world.
After giving someone your everything and being left with nothing you tell yourself that you will never allow somebody to hurt you like that again.
This is an ongoing battle that I have had with myself for quite a long time and I am finally realizing that it is okay to give your heart away again.
People in the past have taken pieces of me, so small that somehow I haven’t even noticed until now. They have left me feeling empty and rejected but I will not allow these fears to control me any longer. The things that happened were meant to happen and without them I would not be the person I am today.
My hope for you is that you will not allow these feelings to rule over your life any longer. There will be people in your life who will leave you guessing and say they have the best intentions but do not. However, at the same time, there are people who want nothing more than to make you happy and to love you unconditionally.
Do not be afraid to love again just because somebody in your past took you for granted. Remember that there is somebody out there who will one day make you their everything.