The Things I Wish You Knew

I wish you knew how much it kills me to know that we may never be together.

I wish you knew how much I truly love you.

I wish you knew that when I say “I would do anything for you,” that I mean it.

But you are lost in this world, just like I am. I crave your affection when you rarely show it. It hurts me to be next to you when all I want is all of you. You have given me glimpses of you, like someone peering in through the windows of your life. You’ve held me close when I needed someone and I can’t get those memories out of my head.

You have a beautiful soul that I adore every aspect of. But you can’t see past your selfish ways. I’ve done everything I can to make you love me as much as I love you. But now I’m realizing that I may not be what you want. I think you love the idea of me but not actually me.

I’ve tried so hard to walk away from you. But something inside me tells me to “stay.” Ultimately I am hurting myself.

I wish you knew that the women in my bed are not you. Even if I desperately wish they were you. But I can only fill the void of you with meaningless lovers.

I wish you knew that I have to let you go.

I wish you knew that we could have been something wonderful.

I wish you knew that you will always be my “what if.”

I wish you knew that I’ll always cherish the intimacy that we shared, even if I was just an experience.

I wish you knew that you made me appreciate sunsets.

You need to know that I’ll always love you, even if you will never love me to that capacity. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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