I wish we could both stop running. Maybe then we’d realize that the way it feels when we end the night together; that feeling we both have when I fall asleep with my head on your chest, it could last forever.
The way your voice sounds as you kiss the back of my head and my shoulder, just before you drift away, I wish I could hear it every night.
I would give anything for that to be the voice I hear on my best, and worst, days.
I wish I could hold your face within my hands and stare deep into your green eyes and tell you how incredibly beautiful you are, how your beauty is so much more than skin deep and how incredibly worthy of love you are.
In those moments when you share with me your successes, I wish I could celebrate them with you the way you deserve; frame them, cheers them, hold you and tell you how incredibly proud I am to know you, instead of hiding all these emotions behind simple words and even simpler gestures.
I wish I could teach you that when you’ve found your person, they don’t make you want to change. Instead, they love you for exactly who it is you are, all your scars and flaws included.
Those are what make you truly great.
Those are what keep me falling.
Those moments when you’ve had a few too many and say things you don’t normally say, I wish they were real. I wish the “I love yous” and the sweet nothings weren’t only when your brain is feeling foggy.
I wish that instead of laughing them off, I could say them back.
I wish I could tell you how I really feel, instead of hiding behind jokes and pretending to be void of feelings. Then, you could see how I fall asleep thinking of you and wake up thinking of you. You’d see how my face lights up at the mere thought of you.
You’re human and I wish I could show you how much I love that about you.
I feel no need to put you on a pedestal the way I have with men in my past. You’re human and I’m human and that’s what makes us so great together.
I wish you saw how great we are together.
I wish I saw how great we are together.
Mostly, I wish we’d both stop running and being so damn afraid of whatever this is.