1) FRIENDS AND PEOPLE
You notice that you begin to attract people with a certain energy. That these people don’t feel like strangers, but like people you knew a long time ago but had just forgotten until you now met again. These individuals are more than friends, they are soul mates, connections, other beings of energy vibrating on the same frequency as you.
Then you begin to really see people, all people. You look at your family and friends and see who they are verse who they say they want to be. And you accept them all, on every level, because you realise you are not better than them or they better than you, you have just chosen different ways to live. Of course you always have to fight the urge to shake them and tell them to come and let you introduce them to the wonder of the rabbit hole you have fallen into, but you know that it’s not that easy, that everyone must trip, stumble and find their own way there. All you can do is keep being you and hope that, that is enough to peek their curiosity, and ask you why you seem different all of a sudden.
You start seeking a ‘living’ because you realising that ‘a living’ is very different to ‘a job.’
You look at the walls which surround you on a daily basis and you decide very quickly if it’s time to quit or not, if you are actually happy in this position, or if you want to build your own walls, painted in the bright colours of what you actually want to do. Or, if you don’t want walls anymore and instead want to be free to pursue things you never thought possible but now realise that anything is, if you are just willing to put in the work.
This is all because you now fully understand that time is precious. That what you chose to do with your life will not just be the source of your income but will largely affect what mood you wake up in, come home in, and spend most of your life in.
You stop chasing money, promotions, perks or fancy titles, and instead seek true satisfaction by creating a living that allows you to give back to the world in whatever crazy method fulfills your being. In the end you seek a living you won’t need a vacation from.
You stop believing in love. But not because you don’t think it exists, but because you realise that love was always something other people, and things, tried to define for you. Movies, adverts, TV shows, you’re friends and family, they all gave you their definition of love, and mostly without your consent. So you throw away all those old definitions and accept that you don’t know what Love is yet. And in that act of acceptance you find freedom, and you start again but this time with yourself. You see, the freedom finally makes you realise that the only way to find out what Love is, is to discover how to truly Love every part of whom ‘you are,’ because how can you recognise, give or receive Love if you can’t even bless it upon yourself? And that is when you truly begin to look at yourself and all the parts that make you, you; especially those that you have hidden away because you were ashamed or afraid to admit that they existed within you. Then you slowly begin to heal, forgive and accept everything that is you. Then, when you are ready, you start to build a new definition of Love, smiling in the magic of it all.
You become completely and utterly thankful for everything; For your friends and family. To have a roof over your head and food in your belly. To be able to walk, talk, run, jump, laugh, cry, smile, live and breathe.
You appreciate the sky and the sun for the beauty they bless upon you every day.
You appreciate the way rain cleans the world, the shining moon that greets you at night, the stars that send light from their seats years away in space.
You love who smile at you every day. You feel blessed in the presence of the innocent, energy of children.
You are thankful for music, for long nights, early mornings and days filled with possibility. You marvel and cherish every genuine, authentic connection you make with the souls of others, and know that their presence in your life is proof that miracles exist.
You acknowledge and accept that there will be hard times; you’re probably familiar with many already. But that is why you are so thankful because you accept it all, the good with the possibility of the bad. There is no other way, we are spinning on a large rock in space, around a ball of fire, protected by an invisible ozone layer. Life is truly crazy. Existence is crazy! Perception is crazy! It’s all one big crazy, magical ride, and you are filled with infinite Gratitude just for the fact that you get to take it!