It Took Baby Steps To Move On From You, But I Finally Have

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It took me so long to come to the point where I can finally say I’m moving on from you.

It was really hard for me to let go and move on, and sometimes I wish I could have moved on faster. The thing is, it’s not that simple to let go and move on from someone you were deeply in love with.

When you left me, I felt as if my world was going to collapse. You had my heart and you shattered it into pieces. But I had no choice other than to fight with all the pain and heal myself.

I was on this emotional roller coaster for the past four years, but now I can finally say that I have let you go. I always had an idea that maybe one day we would get back together, and everything will feel right again. I remember the times I try to reach out after we broke up, but the response from you seemed like I didn’t mean anything to you anymore, and I felt worthless. I always regretted reaching out to you afterward, but then a couple of months later, there I was again, typing a text to you. There was a couple of times when we talked on the phone, and you have no idea how happy I was when I got to hear your voice. We even started to follow each other on social media again and it made me feel that maybe it will bring us closer again. But that wasn’t the case, so I had to try to forget about you and move on.

Finally, I decided to delete you from my social media. I would always see what you were up to and who you were hanging out with, which made it much more difficult for me not to think about you, so I needed to delete you completely.

I let myself down way too many times, and once and for all, I needed to make a change for myself.

Now I can say that I’m feeling pretty damn good without seeing you on my social media and, to be honest, I thought after deleting you, I would have an urge wanting to check out your account, but I don’t have that urge anymore.

I still think of you sometimes, but it feels different. Of course, at times the broken part in my heart feels a little pain but it’s tolerable.  

I’m proud of myself that I came this far, and now I know that I deserve so much more. The love I had for you was true and real, but you couldn’t handle the real deal. I thought you were the love of my life, but it turns out that you were not, and I finally accept that. Moving on isn’t easy, but I realized that it was necessary for my own happiness. TC mark

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