I want to talk about my own personal struggle with finding a happy medium between realism and romanticism. I keep finding it hard to grasp reality when I do not even know what my reality is or what I truly want it to be. I think it is actually important to have a healthy dose of romanticism in your life, because without it dreams are not as prevalent. My everyday routine would not feel half as significant if I could not have an idealistic, romantic picture of what I want my life to be like.
On the other hand, having unrealistic expectations for something can make reality hit you like a ton of bricks. So it’s about balancing the fantasy versus reality mindset, because honestly, sometimes being naïve is important in order to go out and experience new things.
There is no reason to be so caught up in your own mind that you never do things that make you feel like you have completely lost it.
In different time periods of my life I have different priorities. A shift in priorities is happening currently in my life. When I initially decided to move to San Francisco, I was prioritizing adventure, unknown, excitement, fear, life, and most importantly, proving to myself I can do anything I set my mind to. This required A LOT of self-reflection and understanding that I needed this change of pace for a while. I had to fucking lose myself for a bit in order to understand what I really wanted.
I often think back to the day I moved away and think how the hell did I do that? I was so naïve, but without that romanticism combined with a healthy dose of immaturity, I would have NEVER experienced those six months in San Francisco. Six months of living in San Francisco with my sister was so important in my journey. Damn, it was one of the most challenging/rewarding times of my life thus far, but now I am ready for a change of priorities.
If I am being completely honest, I love the woman I am becoming, but I definitely have a LONG way to go before I feel satisfied in my life. It is so important for me to recognize that it is not just about being satisfied in life, but how you get there as an individual. The woman I am at 23 years old is a product of all the factors leading up to this very moment – how cool is that? The choices I have made in my life have got me to this exact point. It is insane to look back and realize that even the so-called ‘stupid, irresponsible’ decisions of mine have played a pivotal role in who I am today. Those moments in my life where I made incredibly impulsive decisions tend to be the ones I remember the most. I want my life to be about self-growth and growing in a direction that allows me to make a positive impact on the world around me. Sometimes exploring your own world is needed before you can change the outside world.