Here’s To The People Whose Leaving Turned Into A Lesson

Here’s to that one person who will always be my “almost.”

I miss the times that we would spend together but unfortunately, those days are gone. They are now replaced by bittersweet nods when we randomly pass by each other on a busy day and liking each other’s pictures on social media without even asking how I’m doing.

Here’s to that one friend who ghosted me when we entered college. Spending four years with you in high school was one of the best moments of my life and I thought we would become even stronger as time goes by, but as usual, I was wrong. The moment we entered college, it was like I didn’t even exist. We wouldn’t even talk anymore, and I wondered if I was ever a piece in your life. But if you could go four years without talking to me, your supposedly “best friend”, then I guess that answers my question.

Here’s to that guy who was my first love. You were an espresso shot in the world wherein I drank tea. Just as easy as you turned my life into a roller coaster ride, you turned the bright sky, gloomy. Until now I still wondered you ever loved me considering the fact that you left me for another girl.

Here’s to that one guy who stayed with me for more than a year, who I thought was going to be a part of my life forever. A year might not be much, but we have gone through so much together. I was your first love, and I just broke your heart without so much as a decent excuse. I know you still despise me ever since I walked out that door, but please remember that I was doing it for the right reasons. I was doing it for me.

Here’s to the friend who turned on my back. I really thought you were my friend. I don’t know what I did to make you think that that was the right thing to do at that time. I forgive you, but we can never erase the rumors that you planted on people’s minds, can we? Even if we became friends after that, I still chose to walk out of your life.

Here’s to the wrong guy who came in the right time. Maybe it was the time that we were too lonely, or maybe it was when we desperately needed someone. It was the time wherein I really needed someone’s intimate company and you came along. Then you left as fast as when you came into my life, as fast as when the feeling of solidarity escaped you.

Here’s to that one right guy who came in the wrong time. We were perfect for each other, like two pieces of a puzzle. That person whom you can be yourself around with because you know he’ll never judge you. That person who reads me like an open book, and who always says the right things at the right time. That person who liked me for who I really was, and I felt the same way too. I was the Robin to your Ted, but we needed to find our Barney and Tracey, but until now I still wish that you’ll bring me back that blue French horn one day.

Here’s to those people who left my life, the people who have made such a huge impact in my life, who changed my life one way or the other. I have nothing to say but “thank you.” Thank you for teaching me how to be strong when life has brought me down to my knees. Because of you I learned how to pick up my own broken pieces even when I hurt myself in the process. You left a hole in my heart when you left, and I have learned to fill them in with self-love. And for the people that I have left, I’m sorry. I’m sorry because I chose myself instead of you. This is for my own good, mainly because I prioritize my happiness instead of yours.

People in your life are either a lesson or a blessing, and the people who left are the ones who teaches you the hardest lesson. People leave your life, mainly because they are not meant to be there, and one day you’ll thank them for leaving because they have made room for the people who will be your greatest blessings.