People don’t change. Give yourselves a break and move on with your lives. No sense in running in circles. It’s a lot like a substance abuse problem, you need to get sober. You can’t expect to be able to drink and not want to get drunk.
I guess what I’m getting at here is that maybe we all need to light up a bit more with the pyrotechnics of life. This slightly eschewed rant on my bold (ok, insane) maneuvers was more a kick in the ass character building experience than anything else. But it got me here. Right where I should be.