I know how hard it is to have suicidal thoughts. You feel like you can’t hold on anymore. You feel like giving up right now.
When you see so many people walking around you happily, enjoying life, living life, you wonder if your non-existence would make any difference. You wrongly assume no one cares whether you’re here or not. You wrongly assume the world would be exactly the same even if you weren’t here.
No matter how many friends you have, how many people you think loves you, how many people might really care for you, the truth is that life goes on. They might cry for a while, even miss hanging out with you for some days or regret for not seeing what you were going through while you were right in front of them, but they’ll gradually move on. Right…? Wrong.
Trust me, when I say I know exactly what you are going through. Because I’ve been through the same. But darling, keep holding on. Be positive.
Even if you feel like giving up is an option, don’t do it. Because there are far better things ahead then what you’ve already left behind.
Keep fighting. Remember even the darkest nights end with a bright sun, an amazing fresh start, and more hope.
I can assure you, even if you feel like you’ve been like this forever and this phase is going to stay with you until your last breath, it won’t. I can guarantee you that it’ll pass on and things will be a lot better than today.
Just be brave enough to stay calm and keep holding on. Make yourself understand that everything is going to be fine. Everything is going to be a lot better than it was.
One day will come when you’ll achieve your goals. All you dreams will come true.
There will be time when you won’t even remember these days. But for that day to come, you’ll have to survive today.
As you know nothing comes easy. Everything has its own cost. So does happiness. If you don’t come across any devils, how will you know what angels look like?
Start living for yourself. Give yourself some time. Do whatever makes you happy.
If dancing to a song like a lunatic gives you pleasure, do it. If having your favorite food while watching some random episodes of F.R.I.E.N.D.S puts a smile on your face, do it.
If calling your high school best friend and talking about your memories makes you forget about your stress, do it. If going on a shopping with your college friends can give you little escape, do it. If going to movie with your mom makes you happy, do it.
Life is too short to regret, you know? Take chances. Take a lot of them because who knows where you will end up?
Just make sure that you don’t have to face a day full of what ifs in future.
So darling, keep holding on!
Your day will come.