You once told me that you were terrified of me.
You said I loved you too much, that you couldn’t keep up with everything that I was giving.
It didn’t matter much you fell short, I love you and that’s one good reason why I’m still here right now.
I am no expert in love, but I am pretty sure no one is.
I don’t know how much time I’ve got with you but allow me to take each waking moment
to show you how I will love you in the best way I know how.
In toughest of times when you no longer want to wake up, when all cynicism has clogged your mind and despair has eaten you alive, remember that you have me to run to. You will always have my hand to hold, and sure enough that you can expect that because I won’t let go.
When you find yourself searching for sunshine in your empty pocket, have some of mine.
Take as much as you need. Better yet, I’d give you the whole universe so your skies will never be dark again.
And if ever I go empty, you never have to worry, because we will chase the light together.
For those days that my love wouldn’t be enough to help you rally and resentment will be your choice of shield.
I will understand that and let you be.
I won’t force you to believe in my optimism but I am hopeful that you will come out this alive.
I will patiently wait for you, no matter how long it takes for you to realize that you don’t have to carry this world on your own, because you had me since day one.
The future will always be daunting.
Perhaps it will overwhelm you and leave you doubting yourself.
But know that I will never stop believing in the power of your dreams and desires of your heart. I will love you even when it’s hard to even love yourself. I will still choose to see the good in you and the possibility of your best version.
I will never grow tired of you, and even if we have to do this all over again, I’d still choose what we have.
I know there is no certainty if I’d ever get that chance to share with you forever and a day.
All I have is now.
There is no “too much” or “too little” to think of.
I don’t want to regret anything when The End comes for us.
So, you can save all your “what if’s” and doubts, because the answer to that is “I’ll always love you”.
There is no need for you to do the same lengths that I do for you, or reciprocate more than what is expected.
All I’m asking is for you to just accept it. No questions asked.
You are worth every risk that I’ve taken and all the decisions I’ve made.
Rest your heart, because there is no room to fear.
For I will love the best way I know how.
The way love has taught me to.