Just So You Know, Your Past Does Not Define You

Girl in skirt standing on beach
Timothy Paul Smith

Repeat this until you believe it:

Your past does not define you.

Your past may have clawed their way into your bones, filling you with fear and anger. You may have become someone unrecognizable, all because of someone who took your beautiful innocence away and destroyed you.

You may have nights with an eternal cycle of agony because your mind kept reliving that moment you decided that you didn’t belong to this world. You may have wanted to punish yourself for giving up on yourself, treating yourself so badly as if it was your fault.

Don’t.

Don’t you dare hurt yourself. None of what happened to you was your fault.
You are not naïve for believing in false promises when all you really did was crave for a love that was real.

You are not weak for not being able to see past every lie that was ever told to you.

You are not vulnerable for being someone who just loved everything and everyone with everything that you’ve had.

How could it be your fault when all you really wanted was to fit in with the rest of the world?

You are not your past.

You have the ability to get back up and fight the world. You have chosen to be someone of a genuine and compassionate heart, even if you had every reason to despise the world.

The world treated you in such a destructive way when all you wanted was to love and be loved in return. The world opened your eyes to a new reality that people have the ability to ruin who you are and make it seem as if it was your fault.

To you, whoever is reading this, I am truly sorry that you had to go through this alone. I am truly sorry for all the times when life didn’t treat you right. I am truly sorry for all the times you thought nobody was worth trusting anymore.

I am truly sorry for the great amount of pain you had to endure, for all the fake smiles and all the reassuring words you had to say to both yourself and to everyone else.

I am truly sorry for all those moments you wanted to break down and fall apart, but you had to be strong, so all you did was take a deep breathe and smile.

I am truly sorry for the feeling of loneliness you have felt for most of your life, for feeling the need to always have your guard up because you’d rather push everyone away than trust the wrong person again.

But you don’t deserve this.

You know what you deserve?

You deserve all the love that you’ve been giving to everyone else. You deserve the kind of life you have always dreamed of having.

You deserve to smile a genuine smile, the kind of smile that you could see stars shining in your eyes because you couldn’t be any happier.

You deserve to be comfortable in your own skin and believe in yourself, believe that you are capable of doing so much more than you ever imagined.

You deserve to trust people again and to let down your walls because not everyone is going to betray your trust.

Lastly, you deserve to finally let go of your dark past and be brave enough to move forward in your life.

You deserve the world for being strong enough to handle the hell of what you have been through and for that, I am so proud of you. TC mark

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