To The Best Friend That Left

I just wanted to say thank you.

I wanted to thank you for every moment that you spent with me, whether they were good or bad. We saw each other laugh, get angry and cry and I do not regret a single moment of it. You said in the soup kitchen that we volunteered at that I might not care what happens in your life but that is completely wrong. I will always care about you no matter what happens to you. Do you know how much it hurt me that I could not talk to you for those months? (I do not even know if I still can), it was terrible. Me going through my depression alone was scary but on the other hand, I think I needed them. You know how religious I am and I felt as if this whole year was something that God wanted me to go through. He wanted us to meet, I do not know if you learned anything by meeting me but I learned things from you.

I learned to embrace life and I learned that even the most beautiful people still have securities of themselves. I also learned that the way my friends and I joke around back home might not fly in other places I travel to because that is what happened. I do not want you thinking that you’re stupid, especially from me. I just thought that we were so close that you would get that I was joking but I guess I was wrong and I did not mean for you to be upset or question yourself.  Where I come from really shapes me and I guess my home state is a more aggressive state than I realized because a lot of my actions and what I say hurt you and I hope you can forgive me for that.

I know it took a lot out of you to end our friendship since you used to always tell me that you never break friendships unless they were serious and knowing that you broke ours means to me that you thought long and hard about it. I do not want you to think I was not angry because I was for a couple of days, I threw things, I cried and I questioned a lot but I never spoke ill of you. I would never speak terrible of you on purpose and I hope you understand that.

Well, I hope that this year has made a giant impact on you as it did to me and I am sorry that what we had is gone. But do not regret and do not carry anger because that can eat you alive.

Again, wish you the best in life, and I will always be there for you even If you do not want to be there for me.