Sexual Abuse Left Me With Paranoia And A Broken Soul
I often find myself constantly scanning my environment. Checking. Looking. Seeking for danger or a threat or someone who could do bodily harm to me.
I often find myself constantly scanning my environment. Checking. Looking. Seeking for danger or a threat or someone who could do bodily harm to me.
I am not ashamed for my honesty. I am not afraid to be brave and speak about my experience with depression and with this night. It is a part of what has made me the understanding and mature individual that I am today.
There I sat atop an obsidian-colored rock and stared out at the Volcano. It was amazing to think that this force of nature was actually alive, active and at any minute it could erupt.
4. “Someone has it worse than you.”
My entire life I thought that being selfish was synonymous with being a bad person. That if I ever did anything for myself then I wasn’t living up to my cultural or religious ideals.
For some odd reason, it is believed that men cannot be taken sexually against our will.
But they do not live in this body, they do not think with this mind, they do not see through these eyes.
Worn is the one who sleeps yet never rests. His dreams are a minefield of memories.
I hate to break the news to you, but you’re not as masculine as you think. I say this because your idea of masculinity is rooted in insecure dehumanizing behaviors.
Because loving you is hard, but hating you hurts. Because I fear for you. Because I want you to see yourself how I see you.