From the very moment that you first heard his name, you have always known you knew it by heart. It was like the sound of a familiar song you used to sing when you were young. It was the lyric to the soothing music that you could hear clearly even in silence.
By some funny occurrences, your first encounter was within the halls of knowledge, and your first deep conversation was while walking under acacia trees. You became close chums and discovered you had countless similarities.
No, you do not have the same favorite book – you spend most weekends doing leisure reading, he doesn’t. No, also not the same movie genre – he’s an avid follower of superheroes, while you marathon Audrey Hepburn. No, you don’t listen to the same kind of music – unless both Norah Jones and Coldplay become EDM.
It’s a lot deeper than that.
As you share your stormy seas, starry skies and countless constellations to this person, you grow more and learn more about yourself. And then he says he thinks the same. Both of you realize you share the same fondness of the past, the same future plans, the same dreams, the same wonder and the same faith. Your minds dance waltz like professional tango dancers on a hip-hop dance floor. Your edges connect like pieces from different jigsaw puzzles but still fit perfectly.
You believe in one God. And it made you realize that it was heaven that decided you two should meet.
They say when you find your soulmate, you’ll just know. Well, I did. I just knew. However, in a world full of mysteries, myths and made-up stories, we only choose to believe what we want to believe in. So how will you accept something as truth, when the only reason you have is because you just know?
You now ask yourself, is this a paradox? As you look closely so that you’ll see things clearer, your vision only becomes blurrier. As you try to seek for defined lines, you only notice more gray areas. You did not want to settle in the unsure. You fill your nights with prayers, asking the heavens for signs, only to wake up the next day getting the signs you asked for – all of them like compass pointing at one direction, him.
It may seem illogical to you, uncanny to some and plain coincidence to many, but you know well yourself that what you think and feel are both honest and true.
Your minds dance waltz like professional tango dancers on a hip-hop dance floor. Your edges connect like pieces from different jigsaw puzzles but still fit perfectly. But the hearts do not beat for the same feeling. The hearts do not choose the same path.
You are still getting the signs you asked for – all of them like compass pointing still at one direction, him.
However, you know for sure that it is not the same case for him. It may take a long time before he realizes. It is also possible that he may never will.
Sometimes you read popular quotes in the Internet that say a thing or two in relation to the line “everything happens for a reason.” You can’t help but just agree, because right after reading, a vivid flashback appears at the back of your mind – these are certain decisions in the past that were too difficult to make.
You do not feel any tinge of regret at all, because hardest decisions have led you to where you are now. They have led you to the person you are destined to meet and share a part of your life with. Only ‘a part,’ because you are probably destined to spend the rest of your lives apart.
Maybe that’s why it is called soulmates – for it is the match made in heaven but not destined to become one on earth. And it’s okay, who knows what will happen in the afterlife?